I can send you into depressing mood
I am the one you can laugh with
I am the one who lies in a side position on the floor
With my head resting on the edge of the bed
Staring at a picture without thinking.
I am the one who can laugh about herself
While other people call me strange
Well, they are right.
I am the one who took cheek pulls once
To take care of my lungs
I am the one who thinks about things
Nobody seems to be interested in
I am the one who sees the world as a place full of diseases and hope
I can see the great tit on the electric cables
Of the streetcars
Or the cyclamen behind the windows
Of an old man
No one knows.
I am the one who likes to take the blame
Nobody wants or is able to take
My Dad thinks
I'm an orphan with some hidden like-minded
Well, he's right.
I know Ginsberg, Stevens, Berryman, Eliot
as well as Pound, Ashbery, Brecht and Kafka.
I am the one who can be passionately committed
as well as completely unimpressed
My religion amounts to passionate distance
My guitar plays my life
But not too deep secrets.
I am the one you have to observe precisely
I don't approach you
You have to come to me.
Self Experience 2
Life is real
And too soon you'll get used to it
Sitting between talkative faces
Perceiving every detail
Swallow it down
Knowing that they don't know me.
They think I'm still a child
I know it better.
What do I actually need?
A cup of tea and a good talk
Someone to laugh with
Appreciate the loneliness
That helps me to find the pure "I"
To go deep under the surface.
I can stand everything better
Than my own pride and egoism
Don't want to stumble over it anymore
It's not worth it.
And if my soul is gone
People should not unconditionally
Remember my name
I want to be remembered
As for something transitory.
Hear my blood rushing in my ears.
Poems © 1999 Simone Foerster, all rights reserved
appear here by permission
We all will drown in the "Nothing new" society. Everything's repeating somehow. So what to expect after Beckett? But actually I'm not that pessimistic at all. There exist new styles that want to be found. The question is : How to look for it? Look at America's settlement:"Old styles" mixed together to a "new style" (New nation).