The tangible force
of you
is driving through me
devouring
all of me
with your
hurt gaze
God,
how your suffering
is sweet
on my lips
You
You seek out
the bitter in me
Tears
drying
on your face
and nothing
Nothing
has ever
felt this good
I told myself
-- I told you --
I never wanted
to hurt you
Not ever
We both know
that
I am lying bitch
and lying bitches
get
what's coming to them
I wonder
sometimes
if you
will ever forget me
The way I promised
to love you always
no matter
how much you fucked up
or how many
hearts
you broke
The way I swore
I would never hurt you
no, not again
The way
I looked you
full
in your vapid face
and lied;
I wonder sometimes
if you will always
be looking
over your shoulder
for me
Envious until your
dying day
Begrudging me
my world of hurt
and papercuts
Hating me in secret
because
I am too obtuse
for your mold
Loving me openly
because
you are a nice girl
and nice girls
love
everybody
Nice girls don't say no
I only love you
because
I hurt you
Let's be honest,
shall we?
I didn't come here
to be your savior
and you --
You didn't come here
to accept my apology
If you are content
to pretend
that this is it
Then I am content
to let you
walk away
Even though
I am mad
with the desire
to draw my tongue
up the curve of your face
Fill my mouth
with the
liquid sheerness
of your anger
Fill myself
with the rain of you
I am aching for you
in ways
you cannot imagine
I will never forget
the way
you held yourself
the way
you didn't look back,
not once
I will never forget
how hurting you
felt
like coming home.
