blackness
silence indomitable
thoughts my only companion
Am i insane?
no basis for comparison
a life of knowing nothing else
enthusiasm long since lost in simplicity
scratchingtearing
pain
close my eyes against it
What is happening?
beautiful
my eyes are closed
yet this wonderful image is still before me
blackness no longer
fading
No please stay
time has no meaning
it is gone now
a loneliness i never truly acknowledged
settles on me once more
so potent i ache
i open my eyes
What is this i see before me?
straight and true as my conviction before this moment
an intruder in the darkness
i have no name for it
my heart races tears stream down my cheeks
an exhilaration i forgot existed consumes me
a fire burns deep within my belly
muscles unused begin their instinctive symphony
the silence is broken once again
as my body convulses uncontrollably
joy
such an alien emotion
friend
yes, an intruder no longer
the world beyond part II
resentment
how can this exist?
why do i deserve any less?
emotions boiling beneath the surface erupt into rage
i want more
something just beyond hearing distracts me
laughter barely audible
contemptuous
mocking me
i will rend this prison surrounding me until nothing remains
you have no idea what you have begun
the light beckons me
i drink of it ravenously
it bleeds across my face through my fingers
i relish the warmth of its kiss
my rage smolders to nothing in the wake of my tears
oh my friend help me be strong
together we will grow
knowledge is power
poems © 1998 John Jarvis, all rights reserved
